Stand Tall and Live Free

I stand tall and proud. I stand alone. I am fighting my way through this life. I break my back everyday over bullshit that won't even matter in twenty years. But in this moment in time, it is the most important thing in the world. Whether it's making weekend plans to see friends, or the asshole who fucked with me in class today. It matters for the moment. People don't seem to understand that, adults don't seem to understand that. Teenagers today aren't living for the sake of twenty years from now. No! They are living for twenty minutes from now. For the moment. For the sake of staying young. We don't want to grow up and become like them. We are tired of hearing about jobs and careers at the age of sixteen. We want to live for the moment and be apart of this wicked web we weave called life. We make it. We wove it. It was given to us, against our will and we want to be the ones who make it into something. It is our choice to do what ever it is that we do. No one can change us. No one can force us to make a change, we are who we set out to be. And we will become what we want. No one can take that right from us. Though I have seen it attempted. I witness kids my age forced into the job force at the age of twelve. They are not allowed to experience their own mistakes. So, for those who are free. Free to live the way you want, live a little more each day for the ones who can't. For those who cannot take what is theirs to begin with. For those with no life left in their young age, live for them. Be free, and keep what is yours, yours. Live for the moment, and the moment is yours! Stand up and fight for what you want, and never back down. Never give in. And always stand tall. Your day will come, but today is yours, and you must fight to keep it.

Crush of the Week #5

Here I am. Posting another meaningless blog...thingy.

Crush # 1

Ashley Purdy. He's the awesome bassist for Black Veil Brides. I do not know that much about him, however. I always respect a man with a bass.

Crush # 2

Yolandi Visser. She is the female vocalist from the South African hip-hop group, Die Antwoord. She is really pretty, and has a great voice. Check out "Enter the Ninja" on Youtube! Die Antwoord is redefining the world of hip-hop and are doing a great job at it.

Sick of trying...sick of dying.

I'm tired of never being allowed to be who I am. I want to shine. I want to breathe. I want for people to see me for who I am, not how I dress. But in this fucking world, that is too much to ask.

I'm sorry for not blogging for a while. It's been a tough few months. I've gone through a lot, but I'm back...And I'm fucking sick. Yeah...I've had this wicked bad debilitating cough, and it's starting to scare my teacher...

Crush's Of The Week #4

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know that I haven't posted a whole lot of these thingys, but I say it's week 4, so that's what it will be!

Pressing on...

Jack E. Strify: He cool, he's talented, and he fails at blogging. I wish that he and the rest of Cinema Bizarre would suck it all up and be a band again.

Kerli: She's beautiful, talented, and Estonian. Her music is sensational and addictive. And I believe that she is so much better than Gaga.

Another chance at true love with the same person

I'm so scared. I don't want to fuck this up...again. I want to stay with him, for much longer. I love him. I was so scared yesterday, when I logged in and he had sent me a message saying that this was a waste of time for both of us. I almost cried. Because I love him so FUCKING much. He's my one, my only. And I love him everyday. I think about him when I have nothing else to think about. I love him when I am sleeping, he is in my dreams. I am happy to hold him close to me once more at the end of the week. And I really love him. I can never stop saying that. I do. I fucking love him. And I am happy that he is giving me another chance.

Mini Pancakes and Juice

Wow. Today, is going to be a good day. The pancakes that the school has given us told me so. I mean, who gives someone pancakes and expects them to have a bad day? I mean really! It just seems like good logic. And anyway...I went job hunting yesterday. My feet were fucking screaming at me. And it really fucking sucked. And right when I walked in the door, I was forced to do chores!

I'm so fucking tired, like no lie. And I have lost access to my Ning. I made one for the German Band, Die Killerpilze, but now it's gone. :-(

I got my bestest friend ever to like, blog! His name is Leon, and he is cool. Lizz, I command that you add him at once. If you want a laugh, you must.

Anyway, I am very bored with my life. Maybe when I go job-hunting today, I will not be bored. I am hoping to get a job.


Fuck this shit, I am fucking tired of having people make fun of me for stupid ass shit. I am wearing high fucking heals today. I was getting a fucking drink of water, and a seeing as the water fountain is set lower than every other one in the fucking school.